Little ol' me. Remember? The pretty annoying girl with the mousy brown hair and nothing to do with herself.


But anyway, not the point. I just wanted t give anyone reading this an update on my life. I move out. Yep, I'm on my own. I moved in with david, cause his dad moved out to 'find work upstate'. I really have no idea what he's doing up there.... besides getting drunk a lot and bringin down some bangin weed to sell, which bothers me none, because now I don't have to drive to get it. But besides that, I'm realy liking living on my own. It was really hard at first to get used to, being without my family. I was in bad shape for a few days. But I'm doin great now, and I love that when I come home I'm sitting on my couch, and when I drive it's in my car, and it just feels awesome to own everything that I own, even if it isn't the fanciest thing in the world.

But yeah. Wanna smoke a bong sometime? my cell's always on.

Something so perfect and so rare
There is no cure
There's not a prayer, a prayer
So what can I do?

I am the only perfect choice
You've met your match
I've lost my voice
And when you're gone it gets so cold
I swear I'm too young to be this old, this old
so what can I do?

I feel really good. Like for once, everything might just fall into place. and I'm just trying to bask in it before it all crashes down around me.

mood: excited

Soooooo, I'm in Florida. And I already got sunburn. Only one arm though, which is weird. And I feel better, here with the sun, and I like it. They're looking for a groomer over in vero beach at the petsmart. I wonder if I'd be able to stay here....

location: grandparents' place mood: chillin music: justin whistling the zelda theme?

I was watching the daily show today before I went to work and they mentioned that some were considering legalizing marijuana to help jumpstart the economy. Now, you all should know, that I do enjoy the benefits of a good toke, and although I've though before that this is what I wanted, I thught about it today and something about it just seemed unsettling. as I was thinking about it I realized that it seems that when we go through a serious economic downturn, we legalize something. after the great depression we ended prohibition, and now there's discussion of weed. I love weed, don't get me wrong, but it seems there might be a trend going. so far, there hasn't been anything of real harm legalized, but if there's another downturn in 40 or 50 years will they unleash something of actual harm? I mean, anything can cause harm in the wrong hands, that's why weed gets such a bad rep, but what if they legalize something that's just bad all around? there's a lot of cocaine goin' around illegally, but does that mean the government should legalize it and ignore the many downfalls for a couple million dollars? I don't know, the government just doesn't sit right with me anymore. it's all about money, and people don't understand how it works and that they really have nothing to do with the economy and can only do so much to control it, but they expect the government to do everything for them. honestly I think the problem is that we've just gotten too big. I personally think we break into 2 different but cooperative countries and try to work out the power. but only revolution can bring that on and everyone's too stupid and lazy. not that I don't love the US, but there's only so much a government can control before it becomes too much. I'm totally into that idea, as long as washington doesn't end up onthe commy- socialist side of the break, I'm fine.

but of course, I didn't even go to college so why listen to me? hehehe.

I have a car. I have a car! Or rather, I will have a car. It's a 92 Chevy Lumina, it has no brakes, 118,000 miles, it's big and it's clunky and I love it. I've tried to tell people, but they keep changing the subject. I feel like I'm the only one who's excited about this, but I don't care. I have a car! They just have to put in a new brake line, find some matching hubcaps, clean it out, and I'll be driving my wonderful loving chevy when I get my license. I'm so happy.

mood: ecstatic

I went to Maine for a week. The night before we left, I actually hung out with Char, and we saw the Bourne Ultimatum, which was ballin. One of my favorite memories will always be my father, driving the rv, singing Kelly Clarkson. But anyway, I had fun. We did a lot of shopping. I met a woman who lived in Montreal, but used to live in England. And she had a miiiiighty cute son. I dragged my mom, rob and cathy all over maine, looking for yarn shops(most of which turned out to not exist) and got some really nice yarn for a hat and mittens I'm gonna make. Did I mention that I have the hottest jacket ever? Cause I do. I love it. But ummm. I went to a carnival. Went on a crazy ride. Then I went to the beach with my mom, and now my enire backside is all burned. It was really bad yesterday, today it's a lot better. Tomorrow it'll be nothin. I got the new Vogue Kniting, and I love it. I haven't gotten to read it all yet, but I will. I hung out with Lauren S. and Davey today after I helped unpack things. It was nice, I haven't hung out with either of them in like, forever. We chilled, and after Davey went home me and Lauren both drank a tab, and her mom gave her pajama pants with stars on them, so we both kept going up to Erika(who was chillin with Beverly) and dance and went 'WOOO! SPACE PANTS! SPACE PANTS!' and talked about Harrison Ford.


"Mothers only abandon ugly children."

mood: bouncy

Word. So, I went to Virginia. Amy's team won their division, varsity didn't. Oh well. It was pretty okay-fun, though. It rained a lot of the time, which was a bummer because I really wanted to go to the beach, but hopefully I will soon. We got home at like, 11:30 last night, and I didn't get to bed until like, 1 this morning. I guess I slept through my alarm and my dad got really pissed because he couldn't yell at me to wake me up this morning because I locked my door last night. I couldn't help it, I was mad last night, and I lock the door when I'm mad. Don't ask, I don't even understand. I got to lunch second period, and I kinda wish I just hadn't gone at all. School is so stupid these days. Photography was good, though. My film came out, even though it's a little too light. But hey, I was sitting there scared that it hadn't come out at all, so as long as here's some pictures there, I'm good. I hung out with Erika after school, and then went to work. I had a good time at work, and I'm prety chill right now. I've been thinking all afternoon about how I have to and was going to do my homework, but now I'm not gonna. I'm just lazy and tired and want to go to bed. So good night.

mood: tired

I'm leaving for Virginia in a few minutes. I'm happy to go to a different state. I'm hoping this is what I've been waiting for, even if it is only for a couple of days. Peace.

mood: optimistic music: Wind blowing through open windows on the highway

Concert last night. Oh man, I love women's choir. That's all I'm gonna say about that. I don't know if we're having breakfast and doing joys and concerns tomorrow, but uhhh... I'm just gonna hope for snow? So yeah. Laury came. Nick didn't. I wasn't expecting him to. But I got really excited when I saw laury. She drove me home and it was good. and then James came over. Oh man, I love that boy. We had such a good time. I didn't think we would, but we did and it was amazing. He brouht the tv edition Scene It, just so we could play with the dvd and just not care about the actual game. He brought the game and forgot the dvd. And he also brought yummy things to eat. We decided we had a sitcom, and that the first episode would get the best reviews ever, and the rest would get shit reviews. Our first guest if gonna be Jesus. Them Moses. Then Erika. And we talked about Chris being a scumbag, and lost of other things. Oh and by the way, my sister myspace-messaged her asking about the whole chris thing and part of what Gina said was 'I know abou Chris kissing Kerri but I decided to give him a second chance(uhmm... did he tell her? Or did she find out through someone else? And if he did, how MUCH did he tell her?) And I'm not mad at her.' Ha. Haha. HAHAHA. She's not mad at me? I'm sorry, I wasn't really worrieed about that. Because she really wouldn't have a reason to be mad at ME. Chris is the scumbag, not me.

But anyway, so I went to work this morning very upset because no one can keep their hands off the fucking thermoses. And even worse, when I ask them if they've done anything with them, apparently no one touches them. Amazing. Faggots. but I went to work, and then I walked around with mand after I got out, until laury picked us up. We went outside by FYE, and then came back inside, and I started to dance, and while I was dancing I happened to look into Gertrude Hawk and see Nick Knibbs, who looked at me at the same fuckin' instant. So I oddly enough turned around and started walking away, and tried to make manda come with me, but she was in a crazy state of mind today, and when I told her what happened, she just turned around and walked into Gertrude Hawk. And then I followed behind her, looking like dirt, and she talked to him for like three minutes, took my cell, walked to the entrance and turned around and said 'Oh, she saw you in here and was shy, so she walked away. So I made her come back to see you' at which point I wanted to stab her. But I stood there and talked to him about how she was like.... stoned or something. OMG! BEST PART! When we first came in, I asked him 'So where were you last night Nick? Not at my concert? That's where yu weren't. Because you like to break my heart.' and he went 'I'm so sorry, Kerri' and leaned in to hug me, so I leaned over the counter and we hugged, and he kissed me on the cheek!!!! EEP! *girlish moment* So while my head was like, making a weird sound of delight, manda decides to say 'AWWWW. Do you like her?' And she didn't get to say anymore. Because I beat her and said 'SHUT UUUP!' I'm pretty sure I was like, beat red.

Yeah. Pretty much made my day.

And then we went with laury to my house, where I changed clothes and gave laury her birthday present. It was a book of Evangelian artwork. She loved it. And then we took the puppy to the park, where I chased him around for like, an hour. Without a coat, which drove manda nuts, because she was fuckin freezing, but she always is. It was fun. But my lungs hurt after a while. That dog has way too much energy *sigh*. It was still fun. and then we went back to my house, and I sat on manda's feet in an attempt to make them warm(which apparently didn't work) and then laury left and manda ate sausage and peppers with my family. Barry got mad because ally pointed out the fact that anytime barry says something. it usually has to do with drugs. And the use of them. Because he's fuckin retarded. And then I had to clean up from dinner, and then me and Manda chilled in my room then manda went home. And now I'm just chillin. I don't want to get up tomorrow. I hope we have a snow day. Then I'll call up nick and just be like 'Yo muthafucka we chill?' Except I'm definately not gonna do that.

I had a dream last night where Chris kissed me. And then my cousin. And I cut off his penis and raped him with it. There were no extreme details. But enough to get the point across to me. It was a good horrible dream, y'know what I mean? Because I'm pretty sure Char's the only one who really understands how much I hate him right now. Well, maybe manda too, considering I called her up and screamed at her about it at the top of my lungs, and then was shaking while I told her about it. I dunno.

location: the back porch of my mins mood: content

I'm so tired of fucking trying. And this is so fucking emo and shit, but I really just don't care anymore. I don't know what the fuck I'm still doing here. There's nothing to really keep me here. I could just leave.